Words of Silence

An onion for you

2012-01-25T15:25:00.000+05:30

Not a red rose or a satin heart. I give you an onion -- Carol Ann Duffy

Not a red rose or a satin heart.
Today, I give you an onion.

Every day,
As you peel off a layer
A new story, a new face
A new man you will find.

Every day, another layer
another story, another truth,
what lies beneath, to see
fighting the tears

But never look in isolation,
An onion is nothing alone
put it in a recipe and it finds meaning
see me in context,
with my frailties, with my flaws,

Once you know me then
I'll give you a red rose or a satin heart
But today, I give you an onion.
An onion to make you cry.

2012-01-19T19:28:00.000+05:30

Will I go on to become a man worthy to go down history pages or I will just stay embraced in dust among the pages of a long lost book in some corner of somebody's heart?

2012-01-16T23:16:00.000+05:30

Here she lies
silently in the lap of night
she has been too long in the dark
now she can't see the light

She was lost in the woods,
it took her time to find her way out,
now the road is stretched out in front of her
But she has forgotten how to walk.

Here she lies
silently in the lap of night.

Ajnabi

2012-01-14T15:29:00.000+05:30

Mahek bhi wohi the, rookh bhi wohi the,
yeh hawa bhi janemani the,
din mein jhulasti, raat se lipti,
yeh darodeware bhi pehechani the,

Ek se chehere, ek manzile,
ek hi zindagani the,
Ek anjaan shaher mein,
ajnabi hokar bhi,
ekhi meri kahani the.

2012-01-08T13:56:00.000+05:30

She too had a life
But she rented it away in her childhood,
with each passing day she lost it a bit,
now she doesn't recognize it anymore,
the tenants never left,
nor she could claim it back
she still tries to pay off the debt,
a debt put on her since her birth,
she often thinks of another birth,
another life, a life of her own.

2012-01-05T10:30:00.000+05:30

The ink of my poems have dried up,
they look up with blank eyes.

The nature doesn't smile with my verses,
the sun doesn't shine,
they don't touch the strings of breath anymore,
they don't heal wounded hearts,
like dry, they are crushed,
everyday under a stranger's feat,
they cry.

poems, O my poems,
how I wish I could fill you with colours,
and see you fly,
see you wipe out tears and like a rainbow
lighten up the grey sky.

The ink of my poems have dried up,
they look up with blank eyes.

suicide

2012-01-03T20:28:00.000+05:30

She lied on the pyre,
resigned to a lifelong slumber,
the flames caress her skin,
take her in their arms.
I see.

"My angel is gone," her father cries
"she was my sweat heart," sister claims
"I've lost my heart," mother lies
silently she goes up in flames.
I see.

Some souls shed crocodile tears,
some wear different masks,
a life slipped out stealthily,
A moment it takes to be dawn to dusk.
I see.

With her my white dove dies.
I see.
My love a caged bird,
today you have set yourself free.

Stories

2011-12-29T15:11:00.000+05:30

None of the stories saw the dawn,
they lay scattered, strewn across my floor,
A canvaas splashed with colours,
Colours that never bothered to match.

The characters changed with time,
sometimes, they just hobbled and fell
sometimes they walked into oblivion,
and never returned to the stories

Now, I ponder alone in the dark,
perhaps, they became a part of some other story
stories which lie knotted in the dust
away from the naked eyes

perhaps, stories too have a destiny,
some are never meant to be born
while some never see the dawn

Wait

2011-12-26T21:30:00.001+05:30

Somewhere, on the other side of the world,
Lying on breasts, you weep,
The naked floor touching your skin,
drowned in the darkness of the night

It rains in the capital,
the rain drops sparkles under the neon light,
I wait in the rain, sitting under the street lights
the breeze caresses my crippled thoughts.

Neither the wailing stops, nor the rain subsides
Tied in an invisible knot,
another day passes
Awaiting a better tomorrow.

I slack

2011-12-20T15:20:00.001+05:30

In the misty mornings, I day dream
under the warm of my worn-out quilt
about a book that I wanted to write
or about some half-baked plots or
some half-written poems. I slack.

From a corner of my window,
which remains covered with my bed-sheet
all day and night, a ray of light escapes
and dimly lights up my room,
I dream again about the many things which I wanted to do,
about the many men I wanted to be
and the many men which I have become. I slack.

My bed remains messed up always,
just like my head. I slack.

The desktop, which stands testimony
to the innumerable days which I wasted,
looks bogged down by the burden of guilt
which otherwise should have been mine. I slack.

P.S. This lines are an extension of the poem written by my friend goirick. Please do Click here to read his one. Thanks

I loved You

2011-11-20T13:24:00.001+05:30

So you rise once again,
and here comes your call.
I'm flattered by your love and cares
But Thanks, I don't need them at all.

You had a broken heart,
now its mine which lay in tatters,
You said you found shelter in these eyes,
But I isn't sure if it really matters.

Wasn't you the strongest one,
eloquent and wisest of all?
one who knows life better,
then why did you fall?

You said I should be strong,
find a guy and settle down.
But still you hang on to the rope,
Do you think I am some sort of clown?

My life have always been simple,
Now I ain't too sure what simplicity means.
I wanted to be crazy like you,
how I wish I could see it coming.

A couple of years and you will settle down,
marrying a stranger, You'll live an estranged life.
I pity the girl but I feel more pity for you,
because you'll never know how much I loved you.

2011-11-08T22:39:00.002+05:30

Day, surprise me
coz it's the night I grow old with
the lullabies that puts that sweet child to slumber
reminds me of my endless sleepless nights
And the Jagjit Singh songs that float through my ventilators
breaking the silence of the dead night,
reminds me of the whispers that resonated in my corridors since ages
The old owls sits on the perch and peers through the broken window
they have been my only friends, once again a reminder of the cycle of age
They say love is ageless but I have seen her age and die a cold death,
colder than the night that greets me every season,
ya, day surprise me
coz it's the night I grow old with.

2011-11-08T22:25:00.003+05:30

You sit in the silence of your heart
my world is tearing apart
I had promised to take you offshore
But now i feel, I ain't know you anymore

The walls are growing closer,
I spent my life looking for the windows
I had promised to get you across the door
But now i feel, I ain't know you anymore

the night is growing dark,
and you are scared to step out,
i did try to take your hand
But now i feel, I ain't know you anymore

how long would you cry on your mistakes
how long would you term them as crime
how long would your days merge into nights
how long would you stay away from the lights
how long, baby, how long
how long will you lie in the floor,
i feel, I ain't know you anymore

Someday you will be drowned in your own tears,
strangled by your own breath, threatened by your fears
I wish you understood life doesn't have a back door,
i feel, I ain't know you anymore

With remorse to my Motherland!

2011-09-15T18:29:00.001+05:30

No matter how much I love you, O mother,
Today once again I have to abandon you,
I made promises and have to keep them,
I have to find myself some place new.

Now often I see a traitor in the mirror,
every morning, night and day,
one who shrugged responsibilities and fled,
His heart made of clay.

Your sons ravaged you for years now,
still you never complain and stay mum,
your strife-torn soul bleeds my heart,
how can you stay so silent and calm?

This world is no better place, I know Mother.
I wish to return to you some day,
bridging the ocean of my heart,
I want a place in your heart to stay.

2011-09-09T14:07:00.002+05:30

Saari kahaniya aadhuri the,
kisi k kirdar badal gaye toh kahi kahani aagehi nahi bar payi,
kabhi kabhi uhi sochta hun,
in kahaniyo k kirdar jane kaha honge,
kya wohbhi ye sochte honge?
shayad kuch kahaniyoke aagaaz nahi hote,
aur aagaaz ho toh anjaam nahi hote

2011-09-07T22:20:00.000+05:30

Nadir shrote bhaaste giye pelam sagorer dekha
hawai hawai nauko bhashe, kintu aami j eka
sagor aamar kane bolejai, aamar buke aai ebar
nadir saathe onek bheshechis, aamar jhole beshe dekh ebar!

sagor je gobhir onek, ek aajob prithivir khacha
ay khachaye pore, dube dube jaye, aar bhabi bhabnar kotha
thik tokhoni Saagor bole:
"bhabnar kono desh nei, bhabner kono sesh nei,
bhabe kichu kokhono hobena, tai aar bhabishna"

2011-09-01T13:35:00.000+05:30

Tor choker patai,
shei nirobotai,
aami peyechilam sagorer chobi,
Aaj keno tobe ochena hoyechi aamra sobi?

Tor gaal bhangkteyi,
aami badh bandhtam,
tobe keno aaj ay chandrakalimae, ghono borshae,
eka dariye tumi aami?

Sasro baar,
koto nodi par, hoye aamra eschechi,
Sasro baar,
koto chukhat, moner aadat, periye aamra escheci
Tobe keno raasta bhule giye aaj,
aai chowrastae esche themechi?

Janina ki boli tomai,
aaj tomar kache, ekti sudhu onurodh,
shomporkhor anuprerona, nirobotai bilen kore diyona
onek koste, bohu bochor por, thakur ghorer deep ta jelechi.

What is Freedom?

2011-08-17T13:36:00.003+05:30

You speak to me of freedom
But I wonder what it really means
In a world shackled by hunger and pain
All I hear are mourning and dins

Man is chained in his own greed
killing each other for gold
in such times of lawlessness
what the meaning of freedom hold?

Freedom, Oh! Freedom
I seek you in my heart and soul
free this world of violence and grief
Let no night of slavery befall.

2011-08-04T13:50:00.000+05:30

Many many years later,
when time will grow old,
we will ruminate about those faces,
and recollect the zillion stories shared and told.

Sitting under the afternoon sun,
when our eyes will barely see,
believe me there will no chains then,
our minds will be free,
I know our minds will be free.

2011-07-29T15:51:00.001+05:30

The fear of losing you everyday was more than the joy of having you in my life and so we had to say goodbyes

2011-07-08T19:06:00.001+05:30

Forgiveness is a virtue not all men are born with but the worse thing is that the one born with it are often unforgiven.

2011-06-19T14:06:00.002+05:30

The sea breaks into my house,
my castle made of sand
But I am not the one to quit
I will keep building my Sand Castles
till the sea breaks them again

2011-06-05T00:58:00.000+05:30

I never asked for the sun
nor did i ask for the sky
why then the night never ends
why my hopes fails to get wings

I never asked for the breeze
nor did i ask for the rain
why then the wind breaks into my existence
why there is no end to the seething pain

Now I stand alone
a heart full of stone
voices pass me by
my feelings silently lie

the volcano is dormant now
there is no traces of its active self
the eyes look vacantly at the sky
You and your words a bunch of lie

senses sordid
dreams dry and dead

everyday I bent a bit more
like the weeping willow across your deserted shore
what has happened to the sky
nobody knows, nobody tries

everything is a lie
everything is a lie

The Tree

2011-05-31T14:06:00.000+05:30

I see you standing there
unnoticed, unheard and unsung
nondescriptly you grow old
from a sapling to a tree

your branches move up to the sky
and you dream of touching them one day
roots dug in to the earth,
and you hope to unlock the mystery
that lies beneath at its heart

Seasons pass by, years roll by
like a warrior you stand, eyeing the sky
with youthful exuberance you weather them of all
gain in weight and grow tall

But with time a realization sinks in
what if the sky stays always out of reach
and my roots never touch the bosom
and my branches fail to bind the breeze?

Now as the night descends on you
I see you lost in gibberish thoughts
your whispers and wailing fades in the dark
As you stay awake forever lost

With dreams broken and hopes shattered
you lie burdened by your own weight
dozing off under the afternoon sun
only waiting for the end of wait

2011-05-22T10:47:00.001+05:30

No Brother!
Don't burn your blood
This world may be a volatile ball
But some eyes still watch it bled
Don't wish them to grovel at your feet
forgiveness is a virtue, it keeps you safe
one who has sinned will get his comeuppance

2011-04-11T18:24:00.002+05:30

If i say the truth would it matter to you. It wouldn't amuse you but will you for once listen to the silence or it would be drowned in the voices of your head like always.

Your prefer to sit with your knees clutched to their breast amidst the humming of a million cricket, the darkness that surrounds your labyrinth fades in compare to the night that has descended in your heart for ages now.

The broken window that faces you too have been sealed and you don't mind even the zillions mosquitoes which feed on your blood.

If I try to ignite a candle will you open your eyes, would be see the light shooing away the dark or you would prefer starting at the shadows that litter your walls.

If I try to wash off your bruised naked skin, would you bare those pent up pains for me, or you would rather shrug away.

The world outside is growing dark, night darker but you sit their unfazed growing scarier each moment. I can hear voices calling my name, I have promises to keep -- some named, some unnamed.

The effervescent hopes is escaping my eyes, the eternal sunshine fading in the face of the ubiquitous web darkness which paints your face now. The end is nearing and I know this time two lives would be lost in this eternal tunnel of love.

2011-04-03T18:25:00.000+05:30

The whole world will die
burn in the red eye
all love will be smoked away
epithets on tombs
would be You and I

2011-03-29T20:17:00.000+05:30

Many many years later
I still stay a man of silence
probing the flickering shadows on the wall
and finding reasons in your eternal dance

2011-03-25T14:47:00.000+05:30

My mind is a haunted house
where ghosts of my perished hopes scream every night
they mourn the death of a new one
and fade in morning light

2011-03-14T15:03:00.000+05:30

I'm not the one to stay in the fray
everything doesn't have to end this way
Leave the shores of ego and walk the line
hear what the waves in the ocean convey

2011-03-07T23:10:00.000+05:30

Don't mourn the demise of hope
It is a mirage that you see
Even in the darkest of tunnels fireflies roam
You haven't seen yet the roots of the tree

2011-02-28T15:14:00.001+05:30

Torn pages of my life lie forgotten in some lost corner
And my dead poems weep the death of desire to live
the blunt nib of my long lost pen still gasp for an eternal drop of ink
moonlight still knock on my broken window pane
and I float in nothings, still looking for the broken link

2011-02-19T16:02:00.000+05:30

Darkness creeps in my heart
As an endless night falls on you
my breath stinks of your love
I feel red, green and blue

2011-01-22T18:07:00.001+05:30

The waves spoke into the ocean's ear,
Words which I longed to hear for her,
now when I stand in front of the ocean vast,
all I'm left with is a lonesome tear

A year of nothings

2011-01-01T13:35:00.000+05:30

Another one flies through the cages,
cages I built over the years
of dreams, of thoughts, of age
yet i stay a man with no qualms
no pain and no tears

Another mundane sack of moments
lazy, unexciting and unworthy
nothing to be proud of
nothing to feel ashamed
life is in slow motion
and aspirations doze off

I'm older, elder but empty
neither wiser, nor foolish
sagacious or imbecile either
perhaps, a little careless

I made a few friends
but they faded into acquaintances
and then to nothings
old friends, static
old foes?
never had, never mattered

The growing distance became more distant
Alas, a little slow but on course
tied arms of my wall clock couldn't bind time
nor sleepless eyes halted the days that melt into night
hope walked the edge, living dangerously, but alive

Patience enveloped my world
reining my heart, mind and soul
before transforming into intangibles
as life condenses into a metaphor

I still stumble on the way
fumble when I speak
and tumble when I seek
But nevertheless,
Yet I stay a man of no qualms,
no pain, no tears

Another one flies through the cages,
cages I built over the years

2010-12-31T14:01:00.000+05:30

Yet another day bowed out
yet another light faded out
I hanged myself to the clock arms
But still there was tomorrow

2010-12-21T21:42:00.002+05:30

The growing distance between us is the only thing that binds us together

2010-12-08T21:00:00.001+05:30

Mind in two minds
heart down in the dump
hope flicker feebly
As you get ready for the jump

I slip in stealthily from behind
To catch you before you fall in the sump
but you take the plunge anyway
and I stand there stumped

Lives...

2010-11-13T14:24:00.000+05:30

You lie on the clouds
Under the leaden sky
I crawl in the dust
amidst the fly
your tears wash my sins off
my tears lays inhumed in mud
forever this way

2010-10-21T02:04:00.000+05:30

Where are you?
inside, deep in the core
But I can't see you anymore?

delve and probe
U will find
not right, isn't it suffocating inside?
what is done, cannot be undone
everybody has to go through the grind

Freedom from pain, freedom from life
Salvation is all I want
it is a sacrilage to love
An eternal voyage is what you seek
to unlearn things you learnt

Okay! Then so be it
where, where is the door
Very near, very close
just delve deep inside the core

2010-10-10T17:14:00.000+05:30

Now its over
My weapons lay there
all nude and bare
Don't look at me
with those guilty eyes
For you, I no more care

I've turned selfish
indifferent to your pain
I hear no more your squabbles
or your voice so strain

Let it be blue

2010-09-21T13:27:00.002+05:30

You were born in a land,
where night and day change hand,
But still you bloom in the dark,
chasing memories in life's arc,
Stop!don't shut the rays few,
don't let the color of your pain be red,
let it be blue.

2010-09-14T02:13:00.000+05:30

Only for a smoke
I smoked my life away
now I stare at the clouds
search for the reasons all day

And when it rains
i search for my lost tears
that we had shed many years ago
and wish, they had stayed

Realisation sinks in too late
sometimes after it doesn't matter anymore
Still I clung on to my fears
for I am scared to let go

But I know someday, I'll
till then all I want is a little patience
let me wander in the empty alleys
let me be in a trance

I promise I will be back
back to the past
back to the future
back to where I never belonged

2010-08-02T00:22:00.001+05:30

I never wanted to grow up but the world
around changed its face so often I had
to keep up somehow.

Even the morning and nights changed colours
but my tiny room still was the same but then
one can't spend 24 hours in the same room even
if one has a high speed broadband computer and
a geek and so even before i could realise I
was spoilt, if growing up means spoilt.

Now it is a struggle in the reverse order i,e
containing myself from the virus, saving the soul
from being maligned. putting restrictions, drawing
boundaries, making promises and then keeping them.

Often I don't make sense to myself and the people
around me. May be with the growing age, the thoughts
are spreading @ 10 to the power infinity and with it
the tentacles of morality and immorality are intertwining
my voices and attimes even the silence, which are incoherent.

Why is growing up so difficult or is it only me who
feels something like that. Is it who is the main apple
of discord, the vortex of all evil, the bed of inappropriate
and inexplicable thoughts.

I feel random these days a lot and also very ambiguous
in my thoughts and deeds, so much so that I blame myself
for growing up. But then it is not something I wanted or
longed for. I told you, I had to just keep up and I am
still striving to do that.

2010-07-30T17:57:00.001+05:30

I gonna see you someday
when I finally go offshore
sit by your side and tell you
how I always loved you more

I know the sea will be silent
and the evening breeze forlorn
but my heart will hum our song
as i ponder on days forgone

But would you believe me then?
would you see the struggle I go through?
would you know how i wished to see you,
and cried all night through?

May be you will
with stripped ego, shreded pride
when you stand naked in the light
I hope you will realise my fight

I'll tell you then
how I wanted to be a better brother
to love you, pacify you, satisfy you,
and how I failed time and time again

I know I have to wait
and I am waiting
For deep inside my heart, I know
Someday I gonna see you
Finally when I go offshore

* Inspired from Mercy me: Finally Home. Of course via Goirick

2010-07-10T18:39:00.001+05:30

She ask me why do I strive?
battered and bruised, everyday
why do i try to keep alive?
I wish she knew why the sun burns
Why he refuses to learn?
...why he illuminates the moon every night?
And still why away he turns?

2010-07-05T20:48:00.001+05:30

And all my words goes in vain,
and life down the drain,
you still stand on the opposite shore,
unmindful of the brewing storm,
as I hang from the cliff,
Oscillating and strife-torn

2010-05-31T18:13:00.003+05:30

Without wings I fly
under the carbon sky
the wind tries to catch me
the breeze sings me lullabies

the night speaks me of death
I say what's life without a little risk
at the corner, I turn
As life bades me the final kiss

I take the last breath
I hear your voice and your cry
tonight ends the 'rational' in me
I smile, 'everything is possible if try'

2010-05-27T22:57:00.000+05:30

He talks to me of death
like a beautiful love song
There is poetry in his words
but there is none for which I long

We have our last supper
In fact, I feed him the last morsel
He tells me of his life
and that there is time for the final call

I ponder over the last words
and wait for him to fall
there is freedom in his breath
but it smacks of alcohol

I remember we had the last drink together
and had blamed the hot weather
His company is a disease, he tells me
His last words: Don't forgive me brother.

None can save him, he is gone
truth prevails always
even if it's wrong
even if it's wrong

2010-05-17T18:09:00.001+05:30

I have to rise above pain
I have to rise above loss and gain
I have to rise above sufferings
I have to stop worrying

There is no point analysing
or wait for a divine intervene
There is no point fearing the inevitable
or wait for the final call

I have to go through this friction drill
and find a way through this innumerable trials
I have to endure more
and free my soul

There is no time to regret
or space to go on a voyage
I have to drench in the light
to free the bird in the cage

2010-05-16T14:05:00.000+05:30

When you were busy to die
life passed you by
now you want to live
but you don't know how to fly

2010-05-13T00:30:00.000+05:30

I see myself hanging
I see myself crushed
I see myself soaked in blood
in a corner of my cozy bed

I thought I can change life
But life changed my thought
In pursuit of a saviour soul,
I failed to save my soul

Now often in a corner of my mind, I ponder
does death pain more or life?
If suicide is a sin, what is love?
and if sin still exist when there is no life?

He tells me there is peace in death
I ponder on it
as I see myself again
in the darkness of my ever-changing labyrinth.

2010-05-12T11:31:00.002+05:30

Their eyes are of different shades,
some have a tinge of blue,
some are green and red.
their ravaged peace and bruished innocence,
peers out of their soul.
I can almost hear
the silent clash that they randow do
Some day all will fall silent
either with a bullet or a blow

2010-04-30T15:23:00.000+05:30

Set me on a wet pyre
and kindle a candle below
let it be a scorching sunny day
see how my burnt blood flow

It might not be enough yet
to put off your rage
Try to put some petroleum then
or strike me hard and meet your vengence

I don't know what you hate
I don't know what you love
At night, you mourn the death of the nightangle
and in day, kill the white dove

My blood may not rinse your pain
but it will set me free
I am pissed off with the riddles
I just need the goddamn key

2010-04-29T18:01:00.000+05:30

Anger plagued my mind
Hatred rusted my soul
I laid my hands on you
and we both corroded
till the end of time

2010-04-23T15:11:00.001+05:30

Today time takes a step backwards
past emerges once again for thee
last time it was you on the brink
this time it is me

Silent whisper of an antique voice, I hear
old mirage of a haunted october night, I see
the Ganga tells me a tale today
of life that plunged in it to flee

Insomnia

2010-04-19T00:31:00.001+05:30

I beg for sleep every night
hear zillion voices fight
faces known and unknown
questions that never saw the light

I reprimand myself
for screams incognizable in my brain
thoughts imperceptible keep barging inside
as night falls in the beaten lane

I even lick the alligator's boots in heaven
pray for his mercy and grace
HE kicks my fate in his trashbin
and says: U r just another case!

2010-04-17T15:02:00.001+05:30

I have not seen morning
I don't even know why
I don't even remember when I saw her last
May be, I saw her cry

I can only dream about mornings
For when she comes I am still asleep
clunging on to her in my dreams
I take a gaint leap

But when I get up to see her
she is no where to be found
A raging sun with its insomniac eyes
looks at me with optimism abound

2010-04-13T00:28:00.001+05:30

Once again you tread those beaten lane
wrack your wounds and paint your pain
I can see the pregnant sky and storm within
But still I wait for the acid rain

I know words bore you now
and tears: a weak link
you scratch your bruises till they bleed
but its funny, your eyes do not blink

I hear you've put on weight
weight under which you bury your soul
you cover your light in the darkness of your mind
till time turns the diamond into coal

Diamond or coal or a speck of dust
doesn't matter, someday everything will rust
so plan your odyssey, I will plan mine
Time will see who first crosses the line

2010-04-06T01:32:00.000+05:30

I like your smile
for it looks real
you can kill me with it
they are so surreal

your words smeared on my dying hope
so soft and perfect
like those white petals over the dead
your eyes so neat and clear
they can devour a million libraries
without a fleet

These days I don't see truth
I don't mind coz fake looks so believable
still I am tempted to believe today
your nude and bare skin
face you face, eye to eye
with all my seven deadly sins

Does the night still succumb to the day
or they spare the last ray
even the alligator in heaven, can't say
till then, let me wash off my blood stains
at my own sinful bay

2010-04-01T02:33:00.000+05:30

There lies an ocean
Its pleases all eyes
It welcomes all tributaries
But still at times cries

With a face enriched by the colour of sun
And smile worth a thousand rainbow
It shines and glitters always
But its eyes are always mum

You know it is deep
But you don't try to find
You wait a while and move on
As once again it stays blind.

The Miserables

2010-03-30T21:29:00.000+05:30

STARING INTO THE SUN
EYES MELTING DOWN,
FROM DARKNESS TO LIGHT
FROM BLINDNESS TO VISIBILITY
HE TRAVERSED A LONG WAY

SUBMERGED IN PAIN HE WAS
NOW BREATHES LIFE
MIRRORS WHAT IT WANTS TO BE
LIKE MIRAGE AS REALITY CAMOUFLAGES
HE REALISES THE DOOMS DAY
ONCE AGAIN, INCHING TO CURSE HIM

LOST IN TIME, LOST IN SPACE
DROWNING IN BETWEEN LIFE AND DEATH
HIS SOUL FREEZES TURNING TO SHADOWS
AS NIGHT FALLS ON HIM, BEFORE TIME
HE KEEPS ON STARING INTO THE SUN.

2010-03-25T13:23:00.001+05:30

My eyes pain
can't say why?
sleepless times or incessant rain
that keeps me dry

I live my mistakes everyday
till they grow into sins
lost in my labyrinth
innocuous and insane

everyday, yet another reason
yet another name
intertwined my life
in the vicious blame-game

The sea is just a vision now
another name for invasion
what do u call these four letter words?
love?
life?
I call it 'fake', just a 'game'

Still I play thorough
burnt hay and broken clay
hope keeps knocking in my heart
Says: stay, stay, stay!

Green in blue

2010-03-22T13:58:00.002+05:30

How does it feel:
To live the same life?
To read the same story in the same book?
Listen to the same song?
Watch the same movie ever and ever again?

I know it doesn't matter to you
For I am not the same all the time
I hate you for being so perfect
but I hate myself more
for changing my hues so often
like the sky of a melancholy evening

How can we still be in love?
Do u have a clue?
May be that is what is called
The green in my blue.

2010-02-21T17:40:00.000+05:30

No more fight
I'm blinded by the light
my boat is wrecked
bring me my astray flight

Stop!Stop! My blue-eyed friend
Stop selling me candyfloss pleasantries
I'm done with everything
I'm waiting to be released

Give me ....
silence of the ocean
the smoothness of the flowing river
stillness of the blue sky
the wildness of the free breeze
the endurance of the cold mountain
and the heart of mother earth
give me the nothings that can make life worth living...

2010-02-07T15:31:00.000+05:30

So you are a loser
you cry, you die
you rot amidst fly

You make attempts
of chaining time
and in your breath
melancholy hymn

But sometimes you smile
counterfeited mirth
inhumed in your eyes
somethings earthed

And then you roam endlessly
spiralling in the silence
of a cast away heart

You were never difficult
But now you intertwine words
with riddles and scrabbles

Honestly, I don't enjoy the game
perhaps, neither do you
But why this distance
Do you have a clue?

The record repeats itself
grooving timelessly
you script another odyssey
I only watch listlessly

2010-02-05T21:08:00.000+05:30

Far from pain
far from the blame-game

far from sin
far from all the meandering

far from the maddening queue
and far far from you

I will flee
when shadows of heaven
or hell doesn't find me

2010-01-24T21:56:00.000+05:30

Delineating the trajectory of a fleeting thought
I delved deep, toiled and then fell apart
transiency of it was obvious
but the challenge was too tempting
it proved futile in the end
nevertheless I tried

Separation is what our love is ...

2010-01-15T10:28:00.001+05:30

The sky tells the earth
I wish to touch your heart for once
but all that I can do is watch you
all day and night
Separation is what our love is.

The sun tells the moon
I wish we could float together in the blue sky
but all I can do is burn
all day and night
separation is what our love is.

The sun tells the waves
you are so lucky to touch every now and then
Ocean replies: yes, I can
but we can never be together ever
Separation is what our love is.

The Swallow

2010-01-05T02:40:00.002+05:30

A Swallow flew over her head
And sat and gawped at her
Mesmerized by something in her, he thought
Who was she and how she came so far

He hopped towards her stealthily
Until a gesture changed her hue
For the first time he saw her blue eyes
Her lips were like morning dew.

He wished to care and love her
But night started gulping the day
Fearing the night might trouble her
He flew showing her the way.

Dead man walking

2009-12-31T02:30:00.002+05:30

Ever saw a dead man walking?
I know you would say 'NO'
But just for a while stop and look around
You can feel them grow

Hobbling and struggling for an inch
They try to live although dead
You can see them linger all around
But you just can’t see the invisible thread

Zipped feelings and ripped emotions
Inhumed in blood for long
Killing the GOD within, they live
Allowing the devil to grow strong

If still confusion is raging your mind
And you don't know where to go
Then place yourself in front of the mirror
And try to know the person you know.

The war

2009-12-27T23:53:00.001+05:30

The war is still on
tearing in two parts the soul
battles won and lost
but the war goes on

It leaves you dead in pain
as you try to fight it alone
your pain gives way to the shrills
as your shrills turn to moan

you think you can be free
breaking the shakles you will move on
but you better know you can never win
because it was always invincible

you try whatever you can
but the war will never end
it will kill u but still go on
as life perishes, fading on

Scribbbles of a lost dairy: Optimism

2009-12-23T02:37:00.001+05:30

Wings of time is flapping again
Every drop of rain marks a new beginning

Eyes of sun no more glares
I feel no more those haunting flares

No more does the stars stare at me
I am all above, I am free

Days of darkness ends today
New optimism marks a new day

I feel life in every breath I take
A new beginning in every move I make

May this sun stay in my sky
Till to this earth I say good bye

Ode to loneliness

2009-12-18T00:00:00.005+05:30

Late at night when the lights are gone
And silence is inching forward darkness
When light has closed its eyes and taking a nap
And waiting for the morning rays to crack the dawn

I find myself in your arms
Waiting for your sweet cuddles to start
As you take me close to your bossom
I feel my world coming to a standstill

Thanks for being there always
And feeling me so that I don’t need to feel you again
Thanks for everything.

A fake

2009-12-13T09:20:00.006+05:30

I was not born pessimist
I just tried not to be foolish in optimism
away I stayed from nature
turned my back to the earthly feelings
everything that tied me
chained me to the ground was immaterial
relations had no meaning
love and life just four-letter words
I swam across the ocean
swaying away,
further away
each day
And then when I stood
In front of those swinging and blazing doors
some shiny glittering light splashed on me
and when it was time to go
I realised all these years
I have been just a fake

The Evening

2009-12-10T16:15:00.000+05:30

It was dark in the evening
I was just a passerby to the place
had a bizarre feeling and halted a while
as some antique thoughts started to chase

The place was not a stranger
nor I was a stranger to it
still there was an emptiness
as if there was something I wanted to meet

I peeped and peered everywhere
searching the place lost and found
Soon my eyes stopped blinking
as shadows from the past lingered around

I tried to take control
but my veins started to frost
shivers ran down my spines
I was no more, I was lost

The last thing I remember was
something cold touched my hand
As sunlight flashed in my eyes
I found myself in a differnt land

The meandering mind

2009-12-07T20:10:00.000+05:30

I walked this path a thousand times
have seen this place before
I know you since I knew not me
but still feel to know you more

you are so close still so far
I wish we could be together
But don't know why,
you dont open your eyes
May be we don't trust each other

There are many who want to know
but you are never keen
aloof and alone as ever you stay
as the souls try to close in

May be now you don't realise
but i know someday you will
fumbling and stumbling as you walk
you will learn to be still

Ek Poth Cholar Golpo

2009-12-02T23:44:00.000+05:30

Shey din onno pothe cholchilam
hotacth mone holo jeno
aashe paashe keo nei
poth ta ke dekhe thomke jae
kemon jeno aaka-baaka
pore aache hath paa chere
thik jeno onek din purono laash
nadir dhare pore aache
lokhjon keo sobai aache, kinu khonosthaye
oor bukta k roktakto kore
nirdoyer moto pariye pariye
sobai j lokhe pouche jae
aar por muhurto bhule jai
aamio hoytobah onek korechi emon
kintu aar korte chaina
chai tar pashe boste
tar bethae aaghat pete
kintu she ki chae sheta?
janina, janteo chai na
tai aar na bhebe, royegelam
ek osombhov sopno neye
oke aar khoto hote debona
aami jani tomra aamai pagal bolbe
kintu obastov aar osombhov sopno maneye ki pagoler lokkhon?

2009-12-01T12:17:00.004+05:30

Don't look for love
stare at the light above

Don't look for reasons
allow the change of seasons

Don't look for the end of path
or burn in your own wrath

Don't lose faith in God
or blame Him for all odd

Look at your own eyes
see for yourself
where your peace lies

you are a raging ocean
craving for the shore
meandering aimlessly
each day going offshore

2009-11-29T12:25:00.000+05:30

Bhanga aayina gorte holey
aami aachi tor doley
Ek mutho aalo kere ne tui
ami toke dhorbo tule

Ek chutki aalo khoroch korbi
raater ojon beshi holey
tarpor jokhon bhor hobe
debo aami dowar kholey

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A dead night and a pack of cigarette

2009-11-25T02:53:00.002+05:30

Street light drenches my balcony
amidst roaring silence, I sit
The cigarette gives me a blank look
as I stare somewhere else

Who do you burn?
It's you who lit me, pal

why do your turn to ash?
It's what I meant to be

But you char my soul?
Isn't it what you wanted?

What's your importance in my life?
To heal your pain
and take the blame

But you will die then?
put me off if you want
I'm anyways died

Why do you say so?
once lit, without you, I'm just a stub
crushed and trampled till m mingle in dust

But you don't love me?
I burn, I die for you
And still you say so

But how can you love, when you kill me each day?
I can't meet your expectations
Don't lit me if you love me
let me be there and when you need me
just hold me tight, close to ur fingers
but don't let me burn

I don't understand you
I know you never will

Let us be as we are then
As you wish but don't question me again

The lights are out now
the dead night is dark again
silence still deafens my ears
as I lit my pal again

2009-11-23T23:55:00.000+05:30

Die, die
die my baby bro
lie down here
i'll lick clean
the stinking floor

don't cry, dont cry
don't cry my baby bro
my tears will quench your thirst
don't worry, just hurt me
and see how she flow

Fly, fly
fly my baby bro
I'll cut my wings
and give it to you
sail along as the wind blow

don't try, dont try
don't try, my baby bro
you are no lesser mortal!
let me do the doings
you rest, take it slow

P.S. These are just random words to keep my sanity intact. Its not a poetry.
"I don't mean what I say
I don't say what I mean
lost and lonely
I keep encircling the ring"

THERE WILL BE BLOOD

2009-11-22T23:48:00.000+05:30

Slice your veins
slit that throat
pierce those eyes
cut all that you loath

wriggle your skin on the stones
till they come off your bones
burn till everything chars
I don't want to hear the moans

let there be blood
let it drain down my chest
let it be my last supper
till I put everything to rest

2009-11-17T22:25:00.000+05:30

The ocean was adrift of the shore
guilt-ridden it buried its pathos underneath
One day mother earth tore its heart apart
nature erupted and time tossed,
Alas, they meet again.

2009-11-15T22:30:00.000+05:30

Hurt your heart
murder your mind
but the soulful soul
will never be blind

Even the darkest night
bows infront of morning light
He is never lost
who never gives up the fight

2009-11-12T13:34:00.001+05:30

Kolongkito rokto bole
aamar prem tor chobole
tobe keno aakash bhange
bristir bikrito probole?

Shokto mati
aami ningriye hati
roktakto jebon kuriye
tobe keno path haatar vaan kore
jebon jai furiye?

Lost Forever

2009-11-07T22:03:00.001+05:30

The door was ajar
I saw the light
I wriggled my neck through
then gave up the fight

Like a frail shadow
she stood there, unmindful
I soaked in her presence
till the last breath was full

A fading light, she was
sneaking through the slit
of my dead longing eyes
only to die before they meet

I know memories can't run
neither the moon will fade
nor will be lost in the blazing sun
everyday it will cut me like a blade

2009-11-05T10:30:00.000+05:30

Tide is turning
time is rising against me
I can behold the blurring horizon
Lines between fate and karma is fading
Life still trudges on
waiting for the dawn

Man don't cry

2009-11-02T22:28:00.000+05:30

Cry baby, cry baby
I'm a cry baby on the run
my shrills struck her hard
but she killed the baby in me with a gun

Rubbish, rubbish
everything in me is rubbish, she said
my words knocked on her heart
but she cut my heart with a steely blade

Dead, dead
I'm a dead on the prowl
instead of resurrecting the dead in me
she spite venom on my soul

Mirror, mirror
you are a mirror, she had told
then accusing me of self pity
she fled, leaving me in the cold

2009-10-26T15:33:00.001+05:30

I pulled the kite
with all my might
and wrapped its thread
around my neck

The kite soar high
breaking the barriers of sky
and opening its arms
it zoomed ringing a silent alarm

I held on to the crease
it fluttered violently in the breeze
As in the vacuum of my mind, I heard
"I shall be released"
"I shall be released".

"

The mind has a thousand eyes and the heart but one, yet the light of the whole life dies when love is done

."

Of a lost Leaf and a Spider

2009-10-22T15:31:00.002+05:30

A dry leaf, lost and forlorn
fell from the high tree
floating blissfully in the air
it gravitates, waiting to be free

Forsaken for forever
it wished to die in earth's lap
but as it tumbles down the way
it finds itself entangled in a cobweb

A lonely Spider's web, it was
spun with its shiny spinneret
wrapped in its silk, the leaf lay
waiting for its wishful death

oblivious to the lying leaf
the spider trudges on
its spinning organs spin webs
morning, night and dawn

Everyday gusts of wind
threaten to tear away its strings
oscilliating between two worlds,
the leaf lay, waiting to break the jinx

2009-10-21T14:35:00.001+05:30

He sold his heart to the heartless
and bartered death for love
his death prayers ricocheted from the wall
Enraged he killed the dove

He spilled his blood for the blood thirst
and drained life from his soul
but divine light lighted his way
frustrated he headed for another fall

He set alight himself for the dark-eyed
and brought darkness for life
A ray of light still sneaked inside
but doomed, he blinded his eyes

2009-10-19T14:22:00.001+05:30

I'm no insane
I've just lost my mind
I looked for logic somewhere
elsewhere did I find

I asked road to a blind man
I wished for a song from a dumb
spoke sense to the deaf
and at last was numb

who am I to shine the moon
who am I to burn like sun
darkness have swallowed the seven horses
who am I to run

Do you know the key to life
I don't even know its door
potions of hope and life, do you know?
if so, show me atleast the floor

I am crumbling

2009-10-18T14:22:00.000+05:30

I am crumbling
sanity will have a new meaning
line at the horizon is blurring
And death has changed its meaning

Death -- just another word for ecstasy
choose splitting blood on my pyre
wriggle your skin on my burning grave
You still will be a loser, a liar

Flee, flee time cries now
no barriers, no chains in sight
I can't even see the light
But i won't give up the fight

Peel, chop, or cut me
burn me alive in the cemetery
I'm crushed, bruished anyway
do it, if death means victory

2009-10-05T18:20:00.001+05:30

A mystery surrounds the night
like the frail darkness in light
a face emerges and fades at the corridor,
Huh! just another urban blight

And then I...

2009-09-28T01:31:00.000+05:30

And then I ran
like a roaring river
cruising my way
stumbling through the stones

And then I float
like my flimsy paperboats
across the rain waters
riding the ripples

And then I scream
like the divison bells
spreading far and wide
within a split second

And then I dive
deep into the silence
spiralling in the loops
of my wondering mind

A Mystery called 'Life'

2009-09-25T17:32:00.001+05:30

Life's mysteries are umteen. Even before we could understand the
essence of life and its values, we are already on the track,
living each moment, experiencing its ups and downs, often
complaining and questioning ourselves the reason we are alive
and each moments adds to the already passed times and in the
process, without even our knowledge it keeps us alive, awake and
in for a mysteries journey we call life.

I call life 'mysterious', one might differ but surely for me it
the greatest mysetry of the universe or I should say even if the
mysteries of the whole universe is clubbed into one, it can't
challenge the can of mysteries that life unfolds in its sojourn.

It is a book of possibilities, an ocean of unforseen happenings,
a chronology of events, which unlike a film cannot be fast
forwarded and watched, rather it is like making a pearl
necklace--u can only do it one at a time or the necklace will
never be made.

I still remember my school days, when everyday maa would make a
tiffin, We didn't know what was in store and everyday we used to
wait for the recession period, the moment the bell rang we
should to rush to open the tiffin box and everyday there was a
surprise, sometimes exciting while some times disappointing, but
whatever it was she never ceased to amaze us.

I sometimes ponder with amazement as what a great scriptwriter
GOD must be as everyday he is writting such thrilling plots for
more then 6,706,993,152 lives on this earth, each one somehow
different from one another. Doesn't it give u goose bumps? Well,
it surely gives me quite often.

2009-09-22T14:00:00.000+05:30

Crib, crib, crib Man
Crib your way to death
cling on to your past
And burn all night in own wrath

Nag, Nag, Nag Man
nag till you bleed
spit venom on their souls
and curse them till u breath

Cry, cry, cry Man
cry till your eyes go dry
never forgive, never forget
shoot the dove in the sky

Burn, burn, burn Man
Burn down your whole creation
You never loved this life
Go script your own extinction

2009-09-18T22:42:00.001+05:30

Love, Lies and Betrayal
I wish I could succumb them all
Offshore from this maddening world
I could see your light and hear your's call

2009-09-16T14:15:00.003+05:30

Always the same straw
just a broom
mopping the strewn floor

my identity is in my collars
numbers and papers
and deep pocket dollars

An ostentatious lip-gloss
wet paints and toiletries
to gloss over their flaws

Life is a canvass
painted with banality
same colour, same brush and the same hand
giving my nationality