BEDEVILLED

I dont like myself for what I do

hatred eats my soul I turn blue

Even a clear sky clouds my eyes

breaking the cage time flies

I am lost, I dont want though

the sun moves up to and fro

I strech my hand to catch the sun

I turn black, it makes me burn

my devilish mind bangs the door

knocked down at the heaven's floor

bruises on the soul, something bleeds

wriggled it dies inbetween wants and needs

save me O lord, save me from my wrath

I am caught in a fire, i see death

What I see, is all myth?

A dying soul, breaths underneath

PREMONITION

The sky is crying
I wait for the rain
to wash away my pain
they kiss my lips
take me farther away
I drift to a different land
floating in your memories
tides of time makes me offshore
The sun is fading away
I can't see your face anymore
m I blind?
I fear the night will conspire
push me into oblivion
Will i ever see you again?
The question lingers on my mind
I keep floating in time.

THE ORDEAL

strangling smoke and an empty night

sobs and tears and a lonely fight

wasted words and a recycle bin

lips moves to a dizzy din

burning cigaratee and a bruised heart

ashes pile up on a unhealing cut

A pen and a long paper stack

writing the obituary in pitch black

melting sweat and a raging bloodstream

Some ruins of old broken dreams

feeble fingers and a dead cell

a humming silence and a long ordeal

No tomorrow

Some day there will be no tomorrow

as the days will be all gone

still there will be moments in our heart

some weak some strong

there won't be those hands to touch

and no heart to feel for

some words will still remain untold

as my ears will wait to hear you more

I will run to the heart of the hills

only to find you gone

I know there will be emptiness inside

but I guess I have to move on.

Life of a pawn

A pawn in a chess board

A stone frozen being

It bleeds at times

But it is hardly seen.

Crimson eyes wide open

Cold heart almost dead

Words suffers suffocation

Tears cries for aid

Death mocks life

Life shameful stays on

Breath tries to break free

Helpless, has to move on.